AMBIVALENCE

the state of having contradictory or conflicting emotional attitudes

mixed feelings or emotions

"It was always hard to talk with his ex-girlfriend because of his ambivalence towards her."

"His problem was that with his deep understanding and wisdom of the complexity of all things, his understanding that there is good and bad, positive and negative to almost everything in the world, he had created for himself an attitude of ambivalence towards everything."

"He could have standed hated her, he could have standed loving her, but what he couldn't stand was living with this ambivalence."

"What he couldn't understand is why ambivalence towards a topic like this was considered such a horrible thing. Ambivalence seemed to him as the most honest approach."